i didn’t want to grow up, 2025

about the collection

hazyn forsythe (they/fae) is a poet and creative whose work centres around mental health, neurodiversity, and the sapphic and queer experience.

after releasing i think this feeling is hope in august 2022, hazyn continued to explore themes of trauma, healing, identity, and survival through art, poetry, and community.

i didn’t want to grow up is the culmination of these efforts and explorations—a wider collection that gives space to what was once unspeakable.

what to expect

i didn’t want to grow up gathers poems written between 2022–2025, weaving together lyric, visual, and epistolary forms. where hazyn’s first collection offered tentative closure, this work opens up to the raw messiness of recovery—grief, rage, tenderness, and the unsteady process of becoming.

readers will encounter intimate portraits of family and siblinghood, reflections on neurodivergence, explorations of unsafe relationships, and poems that sit with memory until it sharpens into language. the collection does not shy away from medical trauma, boundaries broken, and the long work of survival; but it also makes space for gratitude, love, and the possibility of joy.

alongside free verse are three visual poems—the “vispo trilogy” (thanks, waiting for validation, the reply)—that extend hazyn’s practice beyond the page into layered text-image works. together, these pieces form a document of growing older under pressure, and the resilience of making art in the aftermath.

formats & details

format: paperback

isbn-13: 9781739614614

trim size: 5.5 × 8.5 in (216 × 140 mm)

binding: perfect bound, premium color, matte laminate on white paper

page count: 96

publisher imprint: hazyn forsythe

distributor: ingram spark

content notes

• medical trauma and hospital scenes; involuntary procedures and dismissal by professionals.
• emotional/psychological abuse and boundary violations within relationships; references to manipulation and control.
• discussion of sexual safety and fear of sexual violence (no explicit depiction).
• grief, depression, anxiety, psychosis mentioned; overwhelm and panic responses.
• family conflict and childhood distress; alcohol misuse referenced.
• strong language appears throughout.

reader care: please move through at your own pace—breaks are welcome. support resources are included in the book.

purchase

when you order through this link, you’re purchasing straight from the source. most retailers get copies at a 50% wholesale discount; as a result, i receive a smaller fraction of the profits. here, i receive the larger author share per copy via direct print—no storefront mark-ups.

contact & credits

business enquiries: [email protected]

copyright: © 2022–25 hazyn forsythe, all rights reserved.

some visuals (background images, logos) were shaped through ai-assisted design, utilising a layered approach to develop style, palette, and refinement.