i didn’t want to grow up, 2025
hazyn forsythe
poet & multidisciplinary artist
about the collection
hazyn forsythe (they/fae) is a poet and creative whose work centres around mental health, neurodiversity, and the sapphic and queer experience.
after releasing i think this feeling is hope in august 2022, hazyn continued to explore themes of trauma, healing, identity, and survival through art, poetry, and community.
i didn’t want to grow up is the culmination of these efforts and explorations—a wider collection that gives space to what was once unspeakable.
what to expect
i didn’t want to grow up weaves together lyric, visual, and epistolary poetry forms. where hazyn’s first collection offered tentative closure, this work opens up to the raw messiness of recovery—grief, rage, tenderness, and the unsteady process of becoming.
readers will encounter intimate portraits of family and siblinghood, reflections on neurodivergence, explorations of unsafe relationships, and poems that sit with memory until it sharpens into language. the collection does not shy away from medical trauma, boundaries broken, and the long work of survival; but it also makes space for gratitude, love, and the possibility of joy.
alongside free verse are three visual poems—the “vispo trilogy” (thanks, waiting for validation, the reply)—that extend hazyn’s practice beyond the page into layered text-image works. together, these pieces form a document of growing older under pressure, and the resilience of making art in the aftermath.
content notes
- medical trauma and hospital scenes; involuntary procedures and dismissal by professionals.
- emotional/psychological abuse and boundary violations within relationships; references to manipulation and control.
- discussion of sexual safety and fear of sexual violence (no explicit depiction).
- grief, depression, anxiety, psychosis mentioned; overwhelm and panic responses.
- family conflict and childhood distress; alcohol misuse referenced.
- strong language appears throughout.
reader care: please move through at your own pace—breaks are welcome. support resources are included in the book.
purchase
when you order through this link, you’re purchasing straight from the source.
most retailers get copies at a steep wholesale discount; as a result, i receive a much smaller fraction of what’s left after printing and distribution costs (£5.19 in the uk, or $5.42 in the us).
when you buy through this direct link instead, i receive £7.44 per copy in the uk, or $10.46 in the us. it’s also a little cheaper than rrp: £15.99 instead of £16.99 in the uk, and $21.99 instead of $22.99 in the us.
there are no storefront mark-ups here and no middle layers taking a cut—just you, me, and the words i chose to share.
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contact & credits
business enquiries: [email protected]
copyright: © 2022–25 hazyn forsythe, all rights reserved.
some visuals (background images, logos) were shaped through ai-assisted design, utilising a layered approach to develop style, palette, and refinement.